There was this moment. This moment that I had when I realized that the world was not going to return to normal any time soon. When I understood that my world had, at least temporarily, been turned upside down. It was not a moment that I was excited to arrive at. It was a moment that I had, for all intents and purposes believed I could avoid.
I am not a person who is short sighted. I tend to over analyze every possibility. Think about things from a dizzying number of perspectives. Think about things so far down the road that most people don’t arrive at the questions I’ve asked until much further into a process. This helps me avoid any hugely unexpected situations.
The disadvantage to this sort of thinking emerges when you thought you had considered every possibility, figured out the absolute worst case scenario, been prepared for anything, and it just doesn’t cover it. The situation is in fact worse than you could have ever expected.
It could be that it will take far longer to recover from an event. Or something will never actually go away. Something will impact you for the rest of your life. The moment that dawns on you is one of the hardest conclusions to reach.
For me, it is arrived at with much mashing of teeth, and hope that a problem will just go way. But then the problem doesn’t go away. And what you thought would happen doesn’t happen, and a new reality forms.
Perhaps you’ve had a moment like this. A moment when your reality changed, and everything around you began to take on a new appearance.
I don’t think any of us ever welcomes realizations like this. Painful moments when a new world starts to form around us. But I think the most important thing to do is break through the pain, and decide to rise to the challenge.
Choose life. Choose to live in this new world. Choose to figure out how this new world works.
My sister and I would always say to each other, “Change is good!” “Then you go first.” A phrase not original to us, but one that applies here. The change that is occurring is not ideal right now. It is agony right now. But it will get better. If I just rise to the challenge.